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To Love And To Lose

Dogs walking in a creek

The pain of losing my new puppy Buckshot reminds me of how bad it hurts to lose something you love. My heart has been broken for two days, and I suspect the pain will last for months, maybe even years.

Buckshot came to the house looking for someone to love him. All he wanted was for someone to play with him and love him. He did not suffer and passed away within just a few seconds after being ran over.

The person who said it was better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved, was an idiot. The pain builds up over the years. Sorrow, pain and regret fills our memories, or at least mine anyway.

Where Do You Find Your Happiness

Happiness, what is it, where does it come from and where can it be found.  I turn 49 years old in 2017.  As I look back there have been various times when I was happy.  I can look back at the 1990s and think of times when I was happy, and a lot of times […]

Trip to the Texas Renaissance Festival

My fiancée (Samantha) and I went to the Texas Renaissance Festival Saturday, November 19th and we had a great time. The weather was perfect. A cold front had blown through on Friday, which dropped daytime highs to the mid 60s. Skies were clear and beautiful. Samantha and I woke up around 6:00 am.  I got […]

Election, life, and millennials

I want to do a video blog (vblog) about the elections, life and millennials. There has been a lot of stuff going on in the United States and worldwide, that will be felt for generations.  If Trump holds true to even part of his promises the United States poses to be a world leader.  And […]

Random thoughts October 26 2016

I am 48 years old, getting close to turning 49.  Life has not gone anywhere near like what I wanted.  A large part of that is my own fault.  When I graduated high school I went into the work force rather than joining the military or going to college.  The older I get the more […]

Random thoughts January 14 2016

Time for some random thoughts on life from a bored survivalist. Lets start with happiness. What is happiness? Happiness is defined as a “mental or emotional state of well-being.” Whos responsibility is it for you to be happy? Is it your spouses responsibility for you to be happy? Is it your employers responsibility for you […]

Single at 47 faded dreams of love

Something happened that I would never in a million years thought could come true, my beloved Kristy and I divorced. We met in 2000 while I was working at Lake Conroe between Conroe and Montgomery. After a whirlwind romance we got married and swore our love to each other. On July 17 2015 Kristy and […]

Starting a new phase in life

I feel like I am starting a new phase in life. Here I am at 46 years old (almost 47), finished paying my child support almost a year ago and starting a new career. Is this how life is supposed to work?

When I finished high school in 1986 my fiance’s grandfather helped me get a job at a welding shop in southeast Texas. The pay was pretty bad, but at least I was learning something. From 1986 – 1999 I bounced around various welding shops hoping the pay and benefits would get better, but they never did.

1995 I went to Lamar College in Port Arthur for a degree in computer information systems. Working a full time job, being a parent, being a husband and going to college takes dedication.

1999 – 2000 my life fell apart. I lost my job due to the company making poor decisions. It sure is funny how the CEO make make terrible decisions and everyone else has to pay the price. Then in 2000 my wife of 14 years filed for divorce. In all honesty I was tired of her screaming, fit-throwing and refusing to control her spending. In the long run divorcing her was probably the best thing that happened to me. But it would take years to make progress in my life.

Starting a new career

A few months ago a buddy of mine and I were talking about life, jobs, careers when I mentioned I was tired of the 8 – 5 grind. I expressed how tired I was of doing the same thing day after day. My buddy suggested a look into getting a job in the tugboat industry. You live on the boat, have chances for upward mobility, experience opens some rewarding career paths.

I got my TWIC card and physical then sent off for my Merchant Mariner Credential.

Then came the bad news, jobs in the tugboat industry are highly sought after. Being entry level makes things that much worse. Like all other industries tug companies want to high people with experience.

After 6 months of looking I was lucky to find an outfit willing to give me a chance.

I am 46 years old. I have at least another 20 years before I retire. This gives me enough time for another career and enough time to make some money before retirement.

This is a random video of a tugboat. What tands out is at around 3 minutes into the video the sun goes down, then you see the lights of the tug against the city lights, with the American flag flying high.

Little past middle age

At 46 years old I consider myself a little past middle age. That is unless I live to be at least 92 years old. So who knows, I might not even be at middle age yet.

Even at such a young age I look back and realize how much water has gone under the bridge. I wonder how I will feel when I am in my 60s or even 70s, that is if I live that long.

I often wonder how my mom and dad feel about how much things have changed in their lifetime? My dad did not get electricity and running water until he was somewhere around 6 years old. What is it like going from kerosene lamps and an outhouse to computers and the internet?

The past 19 years, from 1995 – 2014, humanity has made leaps and bounds with technology. We went from dial-up internet to smart phones in less than a generation. I look forward to what scientist will develop in the next 20 years.

Took a look in the mirror

I took a long look in the mirror and did not like what I saw. What bothers me the most is how I have let myself go physically. Being overweight was never in my life plan. I never thought I would be out of shape and sitting at a desk job.

The sedentary lifestyle is one of the main reasons why I am looking for a new job. I am tired of sitting here.

In a way I am disgusted with myself. I put on so much weight and I feel like a pig.

Another reason I put on so much weight is I have a couple of beers before bedtime. The empty calories goes to the waistline.

Drinking was never in my life plan. I never drank when I was a teenager. I did not even drink in my early-20s. I did not start drinking until I was in my mid-20s. Why did I start drinking? I honestly do not know. What I do know is I regret the decision to start.

Mr Man has passed away

Kristy and I knew it was just a matter of time, but we held out hope. We hoped that somehow Mr Man, Kristys Buff Orpington rooster would recover from his stroke. We held out hope that one day he would be back on his feet protecting his girls.

That day will never come.

It started the morning of Sunday, July 27th. Kristy and I walked out to the chicken yard to check on the flock. We found Mr. Man laying on his side unable to walk. We thought that he was suffering from heat exhaustion or heat stroke. He was brought inside to cool off. By Monday morning he had not improved.

He was not eating or drinking on his own. So Kristy and I started giving him pedialyte, gerber baby food and water with a syringe, but with no needle.

After a few days of force feeding Mr Man seemed to regain some of his strength. He was kept in the bathtub so his poop was easy to clean up. By the end of the first week he started growing, however so weak he was.

Feeling down

I am feeling really down. It seems like no matter what I do something goes wrong. Take 1 step forward, and take 10 steps backwards.

For the past 4 – 5 months I have been looking for a new job. Only landed 1 interview. Went for a job interview, did not get the position. I have a proven employment history, skills, but yet nobody is calling.

One of the dogs I rescued killed one of my chickens last weekend, then mauled another one yesterday. My wife and I got the chicken, separated her from the flock, sprayed her wounds down with antibiotic spray and have her in a cage in the house. She will probably be ok. I have seen wounds like this before. There is a good chance she will recover. Chickens have a wonderful immune system.

Looking for a career change

For the past 9 years I have been stuck at an office job working on computer related stuff. Just the typical stuff like unlocking users accounts, maintaining the company website, trouble shooting VPNs, just your usual tech related stuff.

When I was going to college I would have never guessed tech related stuff would suck so bad.

From 1986 to 1999 and again in 2003 – 2005 I worked in welding shops across southeast Texas and southwest Louisiana. The pay and benefits were pretty bad. But at least at the end of the day I had something to show for my hard work. Whether it was fitting a 2:1 elliptical head on a pressure vessel or heat exchanger, building some nozzles, fitting a pass plate, building a shell cover or floating head,,,, there was something at the end of the day to see. Being able to see your work at the end of the creates a sense of accomplishment.

Feeling down

Kevin Felts, blogger and survivalist

Feels like I am slipping underwater, lips barely breaking the surface to gasp for air.

I do not understand why I am feeling this way. Last summer my wife and I got moved to a rural area. We can finally live the lifestyle we want – have a garden, plant fruit trees, have chickens, live in peace and quiet, and for some reason I am feeling down.

There is so much I need to do, but so little time.

Need to build a rain water catch system to irrigate the garden, plant peas, beans, squash, melons, want to go fishing, build a larger chicken yard,,, feel overwhelmed.

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