Entries for the ‘Random Ramblings’ Category

Took a look in the mirror

I took a long look in the mirror and did not like what I saw. What bothers me the most is how I have let myself go physically. Being overweight was never in my life plan. I never thought I would be out of shape and sitting at a desk job.

The sedentary lifestyle is one of the main reasons why I am looking for a new job. I am tired of sitting here.

In a way I am disgusted with myself. I put on so much weight and I feel like a pig.

Another reason I put on so much weight is I have a couple of beers before bedtime. The empty calories goes to the waistline.

Drinking was never in my life plan. I never drank when I was a teenager. I did not even drink in my early-20s. I did not start drinking until I was in my mid-20s. Why did I start drinking? I honestly do not know. What I do know is I regret the decision to start.

Drinking and weight gain was never in my life plans. When I was in my teenage years I wanted to live a clean lifestyle. My goal was to be smoking, tobacco, drinking and drug free. The only thing I stumbled on was the drinking. For about 2 weeks in high school I dipped, but I stopped when I realized I was getting addicted. I never smoked, not even once.

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Feeling down

I am feeling really down. It seems like take 1 step forward, and then take 10 steps backwards.

For the past 4 – 5 months I have been looking for a new job. Only landed 1 interview. Went for a job interview, did not get the position. I have a proven employment history, skills, but yet nobody is calling.

One of the dogs I rescued killed one of my chickens last weekend, then mauled another one yesterday. My wife and I got the chicken, separated her from the flock, sprayed her wounds down with antibiotic spray and have her in a cage in the house. She will probably be ok. I have seen wounds like this before. There is a good chance she will recover. Chickens have a wonderful immune system.

Over the past few months I built a new 200 feet long x 100 feet wide chicken yard. The stupid chicken did not want to stay in its nice new yard, it got out, and the dog had its way with her. Just stay in your yard and you will be safe. But chickens do not understand that. Why did I put so much time and money into a new yard if the chickens are not going to stay in it?

To be honest, the two chickens that were getting out are Rhode Island Reds. The Buffs, Barred Rocks, Australorps and my only single remaining Black Jersey Giant are staying in the yard just fine. Barred Rocks love to free range, but they are not jumping over the fence. The Buff Orpingtons and Australorps are some of the easiest going chickens in my flock. They love to fee range, but will also stay in their yard.

It seems like no matter what I do something goes wrong.

Looking for a career change

For the past 9 years I have been stuck at an office job working on computer related stuff. Just the typical stuff like unlocking users accounts, maintaining the company website, trouble shooting VPNs, just your usual tech related stuff.

When I was going to college I would have never guessed tech related stuff would suck so bad.

From 1986 to 1999 and again in 2003 – 2005 I worked in welding shops across southeast Texas and southwest Louisiana. The pay and benefits were pretty bad. But at least at the end of the day I had something to show for my hard work. Whether it was fitting a 2:1 elliptical head on a pressure vessel or heat exchanger, building some nozzles, fitting a pass plate, building a shell cover or floating head,,,, there was something at the end of the day to see. Being able to see your work at the end of the day creates a sense of accomplishment.

With tech related work there is nothing to see at the end of the day. Not being able to see your completed work decreases job satisfaction. Job satisfaction finally reaches a point were you ask yourself, what am I doing here? What am I doing with my life? When I retire what kind of stories am I going to tell my grandkids?

For the past 3 months I have been applying for a tugboat deckhand position. I want to get outside and do something besides sit at a desk all day long.

When my kid were growing up I wanted a job where I was home everyday. I just could not imagine leaving my family for a week or more at a time. Now that my kids are grown it is time to do something for myself. It is time for something new, something where I get some kind of job satisfaction again.

I got my TWIC and Merchant Mariner Credential. Now it is just a matter of applying until I land a job.

Toyota Tacoma Project

I have a new project to work on, and that project is a 1999 Toyota Tacoma 4-wheel drive.

A few weeks ago a buddy of mine and his wife invited my wife and I over to their house for a shrimp boil. While we enjoying good company and good food my buddy pointed out a Toyota Tacoma his daughters boyfriend had parked in the yard several months ago.

The Tacoma is in bad shape. A limb had fallen through the windshield, the rear end gears are stripped, the back brakes do not work and one of the front hubs is stripped.

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Disrespect for nature

Friday April 25, 2014 my daughter and I went fishing on the Angelina River here in Jasper Texas.  We left the house around 7:30am, went to the  Exxon gas station at the intersection of HWY 96 and HWY 190 for a bag of ice, went to the donut shop on HWY 190 then headed to Bevil Port.

For breakfast my daughter got a large kolache while I got a ham, egg and cheese croissant.  While at the donut shop I asked my daughter if she wanted a chocolate milk to drink.  She promptly replied she was not three years old anymore.  I smiled, gave her a hug, and told her something like “nope, you are not three years old anymore.”  Kids grow up so fast it seems time flies by.

The launch at Bevil Port was typical.  Pull the boat around, unstrap, make sure the plug is in, load tackle box, life jackets, 5 gallon bucket of noodles, then pull around and back the boat down.  The starter switch on the motor is going out, so I had to use the pull rope to crank the motor.

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Feeling down

Feels like I am slipping underwater, lips barely breaking the surface to gasp for air.

I do not understand why I am feeling this way. Last summer my wife and I got moved to a rural area. We can finally live the lifestyle we want – have a garden, plant fruit trees, have chickens, live in peace and quiet, and for some reason I am feeling down.

There is so much I need to do, but so little time.

Need to build a rain water catch system to irrigate the garden, plant peas, beans, squash, melons, want to go fishing, build a larger chicken yard,,, feel overwhelmed.

The puppies are doing better and we have been going for walks in the evening.

We have a day of nice weather, then cloudy and overcast for a week. I feel that the cloudy weather has been affecting my mood.

I just want to enjoy life. But I feel that I have some kind of massive weight pulling me down. Why do I feel so down?

My wife and I are not in debt, child support will be over in a couple of months, everything is going good.

Puppies killed one of my chicks

A couple of weeks ago I picked up two puppies someone had dropped off on the side of the road. My wife and I live in a rural area which means people can drop off unwanted pets with a low risk of being spotted.

The puppies were living in a hollow log on the side of the road. After feeding them for around a week I was able to get close enough to grab them. When I picked them up they did not growl, bark or try to bite me. Just to be on the safe side I wore leather gloves.

Everything was going good until this morning. My wife got up before I did, she looked out the backdoor and saw the puppies under the chicken house. The chicken house is up on legs, screened bottom with hardware cloth and plywood sides. The chicken house was designed to be predator proof. We have a chicken yard, but the gates are left open so the hens can free range.

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To die with a view

This might seem a little morbid, but when you die, would you like your corpse to have a view of the sky and stars?

While looking around youtube I came across a video showing the corpses that litter Mt. Everest. When I was watching the video I thought to myself what it may be like to be on a place like Everest forever.

Corpses can not see or hear, but imagine if they could. How splendid it would be to be on Mt. Everest, to watch the wind, the snow, and see the stars.

Would you rather your corpse be buried in a box, burned to ashes, or sitting under the stars. Watch the video and then share your thoughts in the comments section.

Random Thoughts January 23 2014

The first random thoughts post of 2014, so lets make it a good one.

Your leg or any other body part will always lose against a chainsaw. Spring is right around the corner, people are going to be working outside, so lets be safe.

Japan wants the worlds help in keeping China off some islands.  If it were not for the oil in the area I do not understand what the problem is.  Tension between Japan and China has been on the uptick for the past few years.  I imagine some kind of deal will be worked out for everyones benefit.

The bigger question about China, is it going to position itself to topple the United States as a world leader?  Reports say China is in the process of doubling its aircraft carrier fleet.  Even if China doubles its fleet of carriers, China will still be decades behind the USA, which is not a good thing.  If China is so far behind the US in navy power, chances are they would resort to nuclear weapons to offset our naval advantage.

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My neighbor was robbed

An older gentlemen and his wife who live close to me were robbed last friday. They were out of town on a trip that lasted thursday through saturday.

Sometime while they were gone the front door was kicked in, the whole gun safe was stolen, and the thieves tried to steal a truck. But while in the process of moving the truck to load stuff in it, the thieves got the truck stuck in the yard.

The man had some day laborers who had been doing work on his farm.  The police are focusing in the those day laborers as the primary suspects.  But what do you do when you need help?  Do you ask friends and family and wait on them to get free time?  Or do you go down to a local corner store and hire some day workers?  My personal preference is to rely on friends and family rather than inviting people I do not know onto my property.

It seems like people are no longer safe regardless of where they go. I figure that living in a rural area crime would be non-existent, but it is still here.

Thieves are like democrats. You work hard all your whole life, accumulate property, then someone kicks in your door and takes it from you. It it is not the democrats then it is the child support office, the irs or some other agency trying to take what you have worked hard for.

What do people have to do to live in peace and quiet?  Do we move out of the city to the suburbs?  Do we move to a rural area several miles from town?  What does it take to live as one wishes?

In the grand scheme is things people taking things that does not belong to them has probably been with mankind since we first started to collect property.  Whether it was a pair of shoes, spear, scrapping tool for cleaning hides,,, there are people out there who would rather take than earn their own.

Forum Thread – My neighbor was robbed

Thoughts on civil rights

For as long as humanity has existed there has been slavery, upper and lower class, kings, peasants, racism and hatred for one class or another. Everywhere humanity goes we spread inequality like a disease.

The Romans denied the Northern tribes equal protection, and it contributed to the downfall of Rome.

Southern slave owners helped tear this nation apart with a civil war.

The civil rights movement of the 1960s turned violent.

Now gays are the primary focus for civil rights.

This time period we live in has been a turning point for humanity.

What is sad, really sad, is that we as civilized human beings have to go through this long drawn-out legal process. We are paying for the sins of our fathers. Sins that should never have happened.  Our forefathers should have never allowed laws filled with bigotry and discrimination to ever be passed.  We are fixing hundreds of years of backwards thinking.  This generation is fixing hundreds of years of bigotry and racism.  Bigotry and racism that should have never happened.

The founders of this nation fled oppression. What did they do in the new land? They established the very oppression they wished to flee from, but just a different form of it. But rather than establishing a king and queen, white men were set as the superior race.

White men controlled the government, white men controlled the trade, white men controlled the money, white men brought black slaves from Africa in chains.  It is the rich whitemans that this nation is in the shape it is.

A nation that was founded on slavery, but boasted justice and freedom for all will finally see the dream come true.

The Declaration of Independence states, “that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

How can we say all men have unalienable rights, but pick and choose who is deserving of those rights? We, as a civilized nation should demand better for our brothers and sisters. Who am I to say that a black man, black woman, gay man or gay woman are any less deserving of their rights than I am?

The goal that we as a society must work for is equality for everyone. Rights must apply equally, or not at all.

On the topic of black friday and selling our souls

It appears to me black friday gets pushed back a little earlier every year.

My wife and I usually eat thanksgiving lunch, rest for a couple of hours, then go to walmart to catch a black friday deal. For the past few years the lines did not start building until later in the evening.Kevin Felts, blogger and survivalist

This year my wife and I went to walmart for a couple of external hard drives and memory cards. We arrived at the store around 5:30 to find lines were already 100+ feet long.

I was rather set back at the sight of people who sacrificed thanksgiving time with their families just to save a few bucks.

To look at the lines it appears that we have become nothing more than a marketable product to wall street.

Gone are the days when families enjoyed time together.

We have allowed wall street to take our traditions and our culture, and sell them back to us in the name of saving money.

What is more important, saving a few dollars or spending time with the family?

Maybe the lines at walmart are a sign of the times? Maybe the lines are a symbol of how desperate people have become? I would like to think humanity is better than fighting over some christmas toy, but I am probably wrong.

Disappointed in the 2013 black friday

I thought black friday was the hottest shopping day of the year, second only to cyber monday.

If black friday is the hottest shopping day of the year, where are the hot deals on guns?  Besides Palmetto State Armory running a short deal on AR-15 upper receivers, it appears to me the rest of the gun industry has ignored the hottest shopping day of the year.Kevin Felts blogger and survivalist

There are some so called “sales” out there, such as a Bushmaster for $1,000, which is laughable.  Why would anyone want to buy a Bushmaster for $1k, when you can get a Colt 6920 for anywhere from $900 – $1,200.  When a colt 6920 cost less than a Bushmaster, something is seriously wrong with the market.

Where are the good deals on AR-15s and AK-47s?  For that part, where are the good deals on anything gun related?

Some stores offered pmags for $10, which is the going rate anyway.

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What does it take to be happy

Lets just go ahead and face it, people no longer know what makes them happy.

If you listen to commercials, the only way to be happy is to be in massive debt – buy the new phone, buy the new TV, buy the new car,,,, buy, buy, buy until you are tapped out.

True happiness can not be based on physical items. Having something is not going to make you happy. People have to make a decision to be happy, nobody and nothing can can force you to be happy.

My exwife was very unhappy when we were married. When I tried to talk to her about her mental health, she would say “look at who I am married to.” In other words, she blamed me for her being unhappy.

After I left and we divorced she still was not happy. A decade after we divorced and she is still angry and bitter at the world.

Happiness is a decision we make within ourself.

Happiness can not be based on someone else.

Happiness can not be based on having a physical object.

The problem with generation Y is they have been told so much garbage they do not know what they need to do to be happy.

A couple of months ago my wife and I planted a willow tree in the front yard. I have been watering the tree so much a frog has made the mulch around the tree its home. Its the little things that should bring us happiness. Such as seeing a tree grow, a frog, a squirrel playing in the trees, chickens scratching at the ground, wind blowing through the trees,,,, those are the things that should bring us happiness.

In the heart of giving

Be sure to watch the video all the way through.

The good man out of the goodness of his heart brings forth that which is good.